Ten Things

Today is my first Mother's Day and it has been wonderful. I got to sleep in, woke up to my two favorite people in the whole wide world and was surprised with beautiful lillies and a card that made me cry. I got lots of sweet texts from my wonderful friends and family. I also got pancakes, YUM! The hubs pampered me all day and I got extra kisses from the princess. We did a litte dvr clearing and lots of cuddling. I even got Princess down for bed with no meltdowns on either side.
So in honor of this special day I thought I would share my 10 favorite things about Princess, because without her I wouldnt be a mom. I could go on for days but I'll settle for 10.

10. The way you snore when you sleep on your back like daddy.
9. Your love of playing Peek-a-boo; whenever, wherever.
8. How you clap for yourself when you do something you're proud of or when we praise you.
7. How sometimes it's just snuggle time. You put your head on my shoulder, sigh softly and just exist with me for a minute or so.
6. Your independence and intellegence.
5. How you get so tickled when you get to share your snack with me or daddy. You hold up your graham cracker and when we take a bite you just laugh.
4. The way you talk, you're so expressive. You talk with your hands like I do.
3. You blow kisses when we say we love you.
2. How when I rock you to sleep right before you nod off you lift your head and give me the sweetest kiss.
1. How even on the really bad days you can make me smile.

I love you baby girl and I pray everyday that I can be worthy of your love and make you proud to call me Mom.

Keep moving forward.

This morning I was cleaning the abode and threw on Meet the Robinson's for the tot. One of my fave Disney movies, and they quote at the end never fails to bring tears to my eyes and put a lump in my throat. "Around here, however, we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward..." Walt Disney. The whole theme of the movie really, is to keep moving forward. So that's what I'm going to do. Move forward. I'm not going to let myself get hung up and the fact that I didn't exactly acheive my goals or that I didn't lose 5lbs.
The simple fact is last week was tough for me. The fam was sick, the weather wasn't great, and I was feeling more than a little emotionally unstable. This mix didn't exactly inspire me to stick to the diet or get out walk this weight off.
But I didn't do too bad. I lost a lb and a half! It's not much but it's a start. It's less than I weighed this time last week.
I kinda sucked at sticking to the diet, but I didn't have any fast food and I kicked my sweet tooth's ass until saturday when we splurged on a chinese buffet and I had some ice cream (vanilla, no toppings) and one of those yummy asian donuts with cinnamon and sugar on it. But overall not too bad. I hit my water goal more than I didn't and I cut back on my diet pepsi consuption. I also walked 3 times! Yay me! *doing a happy dance* That's great considering the week before I walked oh ZERO times. And on saturday we ended up walking 4 miles on accident and having to call someone to take us home because it started raining. It was great I'll post some pics I took on the journey later this week. I found if I take the camera it doesn't feel like exercise and I can walk a lot farther.

So my goals for this week will remain the same as they were last week.
1. follow my the diet I had while pregnant
2. drink 96 oz of water a day
3. walk 4 times

Also a HUGE step for me. I called my ob to make an appointment to discuss my depression. I know I'm late in the game but for awhile I honestly thought every new mom felt this way. Then I thought it was that the hubs had lost his job and we were under a lot of stress, then I thought it was the birth control. I made up excuse after excuse for the way I was feeling and when I ran out of excuses I decided it really was that I was a bad mom/wife/daughter/friend/person. But thanks to a great friend and support from the hubs I'm taking the first step to get off the blame train. I meet with my ob tomorrow so we'll see how it goes.

The highlight of my day

This is the highlight of my day. Our household hasn't seen much of this lately with the Princess being sick but today I've had to blessed hours of this. Now if I could just talk the hubs into turning the tv off, I would really be in heaven. :)

What do you do with quite moments?
I just finish my latest read Before I wake( and am itching to get my hands on the next in the series), you can check out this week's Tuesday Teaser for details and doing some blog surfing. Happy Thursday!

My wish for you

It's 1 am, I'm curled up on the couch with my snuggie, the only sound I hear is the gentle whirring of the ceiling fan and through the open windows I can smell rain and damp earth. It's a peaceful night, but I can't seem to sleep.
I've checked on you three times now, you're sound asleep in your crib ( on your belly with your knees drawn up and your bottom in the air), snoring your soft little baby snores. I wonder what you're dreaming? As long I can't sleep I thought I'd share some of my dreams for you...
I wish that you never know pain or loss. I wish that the ugliness of this world never touches your life and that you get all that you desire. However, since that is impossible...
I wish that you always know Mommy and Daddy love you and you are everything we could ever hope for. That I will be here when you fall down, for your skinned knees and tummy aches. I'll be there if you don't make the team, when you have a fight with your best friend, and your break-ups. I wish that you see that for every bit of cruelty and hatred and ugliness this world has to offer, there is kindess and love and beauty. Sometimes you just have to look a little harder for it. And I wish you remember that for everything you want and don't get there is usually something better waiting just around the corner.
I wish for you to treat others the way you want to be treated and always try to be kind ( even though it's really hard sometimes).

I love you princess, good night.